why why why... why life is like that... why humans are so cunning... so bad... why...

i juz wan a job... a job that i can earn some money.... why can't i juz haf wat i wan... juz a simple wish... to haf a job that earn some money.... i dun wan big money... i dun wan to be rich... juz a job.... why juz finding a job can cause so much problem.... why....

i'm not the one at fault... i not the one who dun wan to employ u.... why... not that i wan to snatch things away from u... not at alll... i juz wan a simple life... why can't i....

why wan to noe why they dun employ u rite? why dun u go and ask them.... it's not my fault.... being more capable is not my fault.... i can't say that i am veri capable.... i am not in fact... it's bcos of life... my life... i haf to be hardworking... i can't afford any mistake in my life.... they decide not to employ u is bcos they find that ur work performance is not good.... and they dun even haf the intention to employ from the beginning.... it's not mi who cause u lose the opportunity... u are the one who give up on this chance... no one noes this fact... and i can't tell anyone... cos i am oso not suppose to noe... all i can do i to keep my mouth shut... and allow people to think that u are so pityful... and i'm so bad to snatch ur "rice bowl" away... why no one understands... why... why...

why am i born in this family... if i'm not born in this family... i will not haf to look for a job so urgently... and all this problem will not appear on mi... cos the company still will not employ u... so u guys will put the blame on someone else...

i juz need a job... i need money to support my family... my mother is going for a op... she may lost her job... if that happens... means the whole family will die... cos no one is working... i haf to work to ensure that at least one person is workin...

no one understands... who will... anybody cares? nope... no one cares... even my father dun care... why should others care.... people onli care about people who look pityful... please take a look around u... there are people who needs more help than they do...

so wat if she really wan to stays in the company... it's juz bcos of a guy... a guy she likes but he dun like her at all... but mi? i work for the money... hello... who needs this job more.... it's mi... i'm working for a living.... not as a interest... who dun wan to haf a carefree life... that can make their own choices... i wan... but i can't... here... who can i blame... no one... juz blame that why am i born in such a family... i love my mum... i like this family... but why... why i haf this kind of father... who doesn't care at all... life is so hard for mi... living is a suffering hell to mi...

when can i really work for myself... work towards my interest... work towards my future.. i see no future in my life... all i see is to meet ends... meeting lots of ends... endless ends...